Sunday, April 12, 2015

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I don't know if I really want this. I don't know where to go from here. ugh.
Am I sure about it? Definitely no!
I don't want to feel more alone and lonely there.
But I have to close my eyes and take these steps. For the future, my own future.

xx

I got a lot of stuff on my 'To Blog' folder... and I am about to post it but... Ctrl A + Delete. Empty Recycle Bin.
I hate this shitty feeling on a shitty day.

xxx

The moment I opened my eyes today, no, maybe even before I opened my eyes today, I got this feeling that I want to run away. I don’t know where or how far. I just want to run from here.

Everybody seemed to be loud, very loud and it irritates me. All I hear is their voices’. Especially these two. They keep on talking, and talking, and talking loud as if they’ve swallowed megaphones and it was stocked in their throat.

Honestly, I don’t know if that is really the reason why I want to run away or I am just making an excuse but right now, one thing is for sure and it’s that I want to leave this place, this house. I want to go somewhere a little more quiet. Somewhere I can have a little peace of mind. Somewhere I can lay and think or lay and sleep feeling safe. Somewhere I can move freely and not being judged.

I don’t know why I don’t feel at home when I’m at home. Gusto kong lumayas L


Run fast, run far and don’t look back.