Friday, December 27, 2013

Teardrops in the Rain

I wished upon a star, I wonder where you are, I wish you come back to me again.
I see the days go by, I sooner wonder why, I wonder why it has to be this way? Why can’t I have you here, just like it used to be.
I don’t know which way to choose. I cannot find a way to go home. I don’t know if I can come home without you.
Even in my heart still beating just for you. I really know you are feeling like I do. And even if the sun is shining over me, how come I still freeze?

No one ever sees, no one ever feel the pain. I shed teardrops in the rain.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Gimme The World

Aside from YOU, all I want is the world. Inside the books. HOHOHO

*ehem* The Fault In Our Stars
Looking For Alaska
Divergent #1
Delirium (Divergent #2)
The Alchemist

I have a wishlist but since I didn't bother to post them, here are some of them. Hoho.
I am not looking forward of receiving these because no one would know and bother to. WHY I still post these? BECAUSE I CAN. (CG, baby is that you? Haha)
I just want to. :P

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

I don’t know if I can still do this. I hate this. I hate my feelings. It just won’t give me a goddamn peaceful rest. Is there any night that I don’t have to weep myself to sleep? This is just tiring. It tires me. This life I got. I want you near. To watch you sleep. To hold you. Hug you. I can, literally, but I won’t. L

Everything confuses me. I am a self-admitted pessimistic pathetic person but look, my friends, what you’ve done! You’re all pulling me up. Pulling my hopes up. I know you’re just being nice but I think, I loved and miss and wanting to be that pessimistic lass I am before. I need to be like that again, I guess.

Darling can you share me your secret? How can you be that strong, after everything? Aren’t you affected anymore? That fast? I bet not! Seriously speaking, how can you do that? We’re on the same perimeter, not fifty meters away of radius, and act like I don’t exist? Like my presence is just like the air? Barely felt. Like all is well? I approached you the nicest way that I think I can. You casually talked to me and I feel that you don’t really like to have a chat with me, if that’s what your actions are conveying, okay, I got it. So I fucked off. I laid, nakedly, my questions to you but what did you gave me? You almost laugh. You made fun of me. (Or at least that how I accept your reaction) My freaking fucking gosh! I need answers. I want answers. You don’t know how hard I’d suffered to  stop myself to walk to you. To hug you. Ugh.

I am not mad. It’s just… just… I miss you. L

Season's Greetings!

Hello dear! Merry Christmas to you and your beloved ;)

May the spirit of Christmas fill our hearts!

Christmas is not always about gift giving, having new clothes, new shoes and plenty of foods but being thankful of what we have. Christmas is not about material things but the spirit of love.
The birth of our savior! 

Happy Birthday dear Jesus! ♥♥♥

Spread LOVE. XOXO :*

Monday, December 23, 2013

It’s 1:45 in the morning, December 23. I can hardly sleep, as usual. Why do I expect from myself, eh?
     I just finished the last episode of 5th Season of The Big Bang Theory. I started a marathon from Saturday (December 21st) from the last episode of Season 3 and I just finished now. Season 5’s The Werewolf Transformation is my favorite episode of all time! It is really hilarious! Hohoho! I went crazy with Dr. Cooper! (as always! He never fails me) You must see sit, sweetie. (Penny style)
Uhm, finally. I managed to pull myself out of my room since I got home last Friday midnight. With this horribly fat-looking face that I got from my tooth infection! Darn weak teeth! Darn. Darn. Darn it! I really hate this. All I want is a good set of pebbly teeth. L *Deep sigh* Anyways, we had our annual Christmas slash reunion party! Not in Manila this time. Thanks God for that! Hahaha!
(Photo will be uploaded soon!)
Look at my face! I looked like Mr. Grimm, right? Hahahahaha!
Later, by the pre-evening (it was made by Dr. Sheldon Cooper, it is the time between afternoon and evening, pre-evening), me, my sister-in-law and nephew decided to attend the Simbang Gabi and also to watch KB 11 on the flash mob! And there! Dang with a capital d. I miss them! Especially this skinny conductor they got in front! He was wearing this smile that says ‘hey-look-I’m-so-proud-to-be-with-this-band’, he looks so happy with what he does and gosh! I can’t refrain from smiling! I stood there, at the side, with a plastered grin on my face. (Imagine my Mr. Grimm’s face!) Hahahaha! The mass went well, I might say. It is the first mass that I attended held by the newly assigned priest to our place. He is very humorous! I like him already.
“By the evening of life, you will be judged on love alone.”

“To seek not the easiest, but the most difficult.”- St. John of the Cross December 23, 2013 2:30AM

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Goodreads | The Bookworm Site

Love reading books? This is the perfect site to track, post book reviews and have a virtual library of the books you've read and want to read! What could you even ask for more, right? :)

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If you want to visit the site, you can simply click here!
Start tracking your books and know what's hot to read! Interact with the other bookworms by joining different groups like ♥Teen Romance♥ which is one of the two groups I've joined. You can also follow reviews and updates from your favorite authors! (If he/she is a Goodreads author).

Be my Goodreads friend! Visit my profile! :)
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I'll be waiting for your reviews, bookworms!

bounce back

I am so affected that it aches all the time. But, is this fair? HA!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Hey there!
I know there are FEWWWWW who still read this blog after being quite silent for a long time.
And since I know that by now, there's no one to read this it is safe for me to vent all the things I am keeping in this tiny organ at the left portion of my chest.
So I am going to flood this with my postsssss!

Oh honey. I'm sorry I do suck. :<

two things - this girl

It is so fresh that I don't want to talk about it. But, don't I really want?

There are two things that I fear the most for this day to come.. two things that I, myself, build..
First, I don't know how and I don't even want to think about, thinking/seeing him holding somebody else in his arms.. wrapping his arms around her body..
I dreamed of seeing this girl wearing a very lovely white gown walking down the aisle wearing the sweetest smile she could ever wear.. she's looking at him with pure love.. I always have dreamed of that.
And last thing, the thing I fear the most... I can't see this girl with somebody else in the future.
It is frightening, right? When you can't see a clear vision of yourself (this girl), at least, 10 years from now.

I think I know this girl! Or I wish, I really know her. I have seen her! Where?

In my mirror.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013



I was thinking why are there guys and men that take their girl for granted? And how many girls are being treated this way? If we would consider the saying “There’s a woman behind every successful man.” there would be billion of girls are working their asses off. But the question is HOW MANY OF THESE GIRLS ARE GIVEN PROPER CREDITS?

LADIES! Taken for granted, have you ever been? How does it feel? Especially when you are giving your very, very, very best in everything that you do for that dumbass shitty guy? I know the feeling is horrible, and I am giving my sincere apathy. But how long do you plan to endure the feeling and the situation? Are you really happy, huh?

To the dominant specie, but I don’t know if you are really deserving.. why have a girlfriend and hide her? Are you ashamed of her? Why have her as your girlfriend in the first place? I really hate people like that. Don’t you know how much you can make her happy by simply looking proud to have her? I bet you don’t. And YOU SUCK!