Friday, October 31, 2014

Parang ayoko na talaga mag enroll ah. T.T
Kaiyak yung subjects + kaiyak na sched + kaiyak na bayarin. T____T

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

I am so up from bed now. Hoho
Episode 127 Hunter X Hunter <3
PERFECTION OMG | via Tumblr

I'm looking for the greatest love of all and it's not easy to achieve.

Ikaw Pa Rin by Kaligta



Bakit ikaw?
Dahil ikaw.

Wala eh. Tumatagos yung lyrics. Kainis. Kaiyak. Huehue

Gosh. I feel so silly. I'm so silly.
Kala ko kilala mo na ako after those years. Hindi pa rin pala. :(
Kilala na kita, pero iba pa rin yung inisip ko.
When did I call you for a reason in the middle of the night? I don't have a reason for calling. No, I think I have but did you know what?

Friday, October 10, 2014

Thanks to You!

For making me smile, for making me happy, for making my heart jump and skip a beat... for giving me a peaceful time. Namiss kita at yung peacefulness na nararamdaman ko pag nasa tabi kita. :)
Sana masabi mo ulit na mahal mo ko..

Thursday, October 02, 2014

virtual door

Septemer 28
Golden-haired monster, I miss you! Bogoshipo!

September XX
CAPSLOCK-ED PARA INTENSE
WALA KA BANG MAGAWA SA BUHAY MO AT BUHAY KO ANG PINAGDIDISKITAHAN MO? WALA KA BANG MASABING MAGANDA? WALA KA BANG PAKIRAMDAM? BASTOS KA BA TALAGA O SIRAULO KA?
O TALAGANG GINAGAGO MO LANG AKO NA PARANG KULANG PA YUNG SAKIT NA NASA DAMDAMIN KO?
KAILANGAN SAKIN MO PA TALAGA TANUNGIN KUNG “SI ELMER NA BA SAKA SI VANESSA?”. KAILANGAN BA TALAGA SAKIN PA? AT TALAGA BANG KAILANGN EH PAULIT-ULIT MO KONG TINATANONG? HA?!
KAPIKON KA NA E. NAKAKA GAGO KA NA MASYADO. NAKAKA BASTOS KA NA! ILANG BESES KO BA DAPAT SABIHIN NA PUTANGINA HINDI KO ALAM!
KUNG AKO NGA WALANG SINASABI KUNG MALAPIT NG MAGKAPALIT YUNG MUKHA NILA EH. KUNG AKO NGA WALANG SINASABI, BAKIT IKAW NAPAKADAMI MONG SINSABI HA? AFFECTED KA BA, HA?
KUNG WALA KA NAMANG SASABIHING MATINO, SANA ISARADO MO NA LANG YANG BIBIG MO DAHIL MALAPIT NA KONG MAPUNO SA’YO. KOKONTI NA NGA LANG YUNG RESPETO KO NA NATITIRA PARA SA’YO EH BAKA PAG NAUBOS, MAGKASAMAAN TAYO AT MABASTOS HO KITA.
ISARA MO YANG BIBIG MO AT MAGING SENSITIBO KA NAMAN, GAGO!

September 25
You were right under my nose.

September 24
I think I could sleep for the rest of my life now. I am so tired of being like this. UGH L

September 21
Finally, midterms is over! Finals, Bring It On!
My third “4” in my entire college life is now a 2.75! Hoooorrraayyyyy!!!
I am not really, really happy with my grades now but I think I’m doing okay naman since most of my subject are under the section of 5th year A and 4th year A, it is hard to compete and reach their standards so I guess, I’m doing fine considering that factor.

We only have a month now, just one more month. I just want this semester to be over. 

September 18
Don’t know if I can still hold on to this plan of mine. L
Even if I do, I don’t know what will happen.  Alam ko yung lugar na nilalakaran ko pero hindi ko alam kung anong naghihintay sa madilim na dulo.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

MAD AS HELL

I DON'T WISH FOR ANYTHING MATERIAL ALL I WANT IS FOR MY PARENTS TO LIVE A LITTLE LONGER. EVEN JUST A LITTLE LONGER! AND TO ALL THOSE KIDS WHO CAN'T BE CONTENTED WITH WHAT THEY HAVE AND KEEPS ON ASKING FOR MORE AND MORE MATERIAL THINGS, SHAME ON Y.O.U!!!!!

LOVE YOUR PARENTS.
WE ARE SO BUSY GROWING UP,
WE OFTEN FORGET THAT
THEY ARE ALSO GROWING OLD.

I was born when my mother was 45, yes, I am a menopause baby. Now, I am turning 20, meaning my mother is at her 65 and my father is 67. I look like their grandchild. People who didn’t know when my mother was pregnant of me don’t believe that I am not one of their grandchild, but their daughter.

I was, and still am, eating one’s heart out whenever I see teens like me with their parents who looks just like my eldest sister who is now 42. I envy every single child who has the chance to live with their parents until they grow old and have their own family, own kids.

I love my parents very, very, very, very much. Hindi ko man palaging nasasabi sa kanila yon. If not for them, I’d may not gone to college.

These past nights, I’ve been having this nightmare, nightmare because I’ve yet to accept that he’s leaving soon. On these dreams, he’s always gone. And I’ll wake up in the middle of my sleep panting hard and with a heavy heart. Sleepless nights that I’ve been crying myself to sleep. My pillow was soaked. My eyes hurt. My father is terminally ill with lung cancer and his body can’t stand any operation and even if so, he wouldn’t under go any operation. He’s condition is not getting any better.   Our family is spending more or less forty thousand pesos a month for his medicines, both the prescribed and the herbal. I remember a few days before this year’s Father’s Day, I was in the grocery with my eldest sister when she said ‘Father’s Day nap ala sa Linggo… nako, baka huling Father’s Day na sa atin si Tatang”, I just don’t know how to react. I want to help to give my parents a peaceful life. At their age, we just want them to rest and enjoy life. I want them to have even just a little bit of a marvelous way of living. I want them to taste life that they should have after working hard for us, let them taste foods they’ve never tasted, go to places they’ve never been. But then I don’t even know if they will still be both at my side when I receive my college diploma.. because, because that will be my greatest gift to them.


“Tatang, mahal na mahal na mahal kita.. yung pinaka maganda mong anak. Wag mo muna sana akong iiwan ha? Ang bata bata ko pa eh.. sabi mo gusto mo makita yung magiging apo mo sakin kaya wag ka muna sana aalis ha?Naalala ko lagi yung nangyari sakin dati sa jeep na nung pababa na ako nung jeep sabi nung driver “Anak ka ba ni Nomeng?” sabi ko “Opo.” Tapos sabi nung driver, “Eto na yung binayad mo oh, kamuka ka ng tatay mo ah.” Kamukha daw kita oh, naks. Sobrang proud akong maging tatay ka. Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal po kita...

Thursday, May 29, 2014

TAO YUAN INTERNATIONAL BAND FESTIVAL 2014

BULACAN WIND ORCHESTRA (BWO) in TAO YUAN INTERNATIONAL BAND FESTIVAL 2014

Tao Yuan Wind Music Festival held in Tao Yuan County, Taiwan

The Bulacan Wind Orchestra on a 5-day trip. I am lucky to be joining the BWO in this trip especially because I am not a legit member of BWO.

May 21 - 10PM flight was delayed for 3 hours due to the thunderstorm and airport operation closed in Tao Yuan. So we flew by 1AM. 
My first flight. First out of the country trip. It's a bonus to have Drew Arellano on the same flight. ;)


May 22 - Arrival 



Yingge Tour (Old Street)


Hello boyfie!
  • Rest/Nap in  Sin Yea Hotel 
  • Lunch at Dashi Garden Restaurant
  • Tour around Tao Yuan
  • Overnight at Chuto Hotel
May 23 - Rehearsal - Tour at Taipei 101 and Concert listening
I've forgot what is the name of the elementary school where we rehearsed. Their rehearsal room is so good and complete with instruments, one you could never find in RP.


Fa - Mi - Fa - Re - Fa!
Rehearsals :)
I can now scream "I WAS HEREEE!"
Taipei 101 is sooo tall!
It is a scenic view at night! ;)
Their Arts Center is so huge! Considering that it is not yet their National Arts Center!
May 24 - Parade and Drill




May 25 - Concert Day




Sir Chito! ♥
Hi! :">
Group Shots!
Lower photo with a Singaporean band
After concert group shot
SELFIE! :D
May 26 - Last Day
  • Tour
  • Flight back to Manila
  • Shopping at Taipei night market
  • Sir Jerry Samonte
  • Sir Hercules Santiago (Todo Kilig pose)
  • Rafael John Rubio
Ceramics Museum Tour
Museum
    Another landmark in Taipei!
    I indeed enjoyed this trip!
    Thank you Lord! Thanks to Bulacan Wind Orchestra!
    Thank you sir Felicito Sacdalan!
    Thanks for the organizers!

    Share your stories with me! ;)

    Wednesday, March 05, 2014

    BDJ Box Beauty Social: Tres Chic on March 23, 2014!

    Save the date for the first BDJ Box Beauty Social for 2014! Celebrate your most gorgeous self together with BDJ Box's premium skin care, makeup and hair care brands! BDJ Box Beauty Social will happen at the Samsung Hall at SM Aura Premier on March 23, 2014.





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    This 2014, they’re holding another Beauty-Filled event, celebrating your most gorgeous self with the top and premium skincare, makeup and hair care brands under one roof for you to enjoy the whole day. Their lineup of beauty brands -- (brands) – will definitely excite everyone who goes to the BDJ Box Beauty Social!






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    Subject: BDJ Box Beauty Social Registration
    Name:
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    Your answer to the question: “Which makeup look you prefer: dark smokey eyes or brightly colored lips?”

    Top 3 choices for talks

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    The event is open to everyone but only pre-registered girls will be allowed to participate in the talks, get a loot bag, and have their picture taken at the photo booth. Slots will be given on a first come, first served basis.


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    Be a Tres Chic! See you at the BDJ Box Beauty Social!

    2014 Shelf Wish-list Part I


           
    To All The Boys I've Loved Before
    by JENNY HAN
    Defy
    by SARA B. LARSON

           
    Love & Misadventure
    by LANG LEAV

    OH GOD PLEASE
    Archetype
    by M.D. WATERS


           
    Percy Jackson's
    Greek Gods
    by RICK RIORDAN
    The Alchemist
    by PAULO COELHO

    THIS ONE. PUHLEASE!
           
    Rooms
    by LAUREN OLIVER
    The One (The Selection #3)
    by Kiera Cass

    Although I don't own a copy of
    The Selection (The Selection #1) and
    The Elite (The Selection #2)
    I want a copy of The One.
    Oh Prince Maxon, I miss you!

    UNTITLED
    by John Green

    You're right. It doesn't have a title, yet.
    We know nothing but it is John Green's.


    Series-es:

    I want to complete these all. One at a time.
    And oh, books are perfect gifts ;)

    Shatter Me (Shatter Me #1)
    Unravel Me (Shatter Me#2)
    Ignite Me (Shatter Me #3)
    by TAHEREH MAFI
    Divergent (Divergent #1)
    Insurgent (Divergent #2)
    Allegiant (Divergent #3)
    by VERONICA ROTH
    Delirium (Delirium #1)
    Pandemonium (Delirium #2)
    Requiem (Delirium #3)
    by LAUREN OLIVER
    Paranormalcy (Paranormalcy #1)
    Supernaturally (Paranormalcy #2)
    Endlessly (Paranormalcy #3)
    by KIERSTEN WHITE
    Mind Games (Mind Games #1)
    Perfect Lies (Mind Games #2)
    by KIERSTEN WHITE

    Will some people help me to complete my wish-list? J

    Wednesday, February 26, 2014

    Feels Like

    Everything went black.Suddenly, I can't see but I am conscious that I can't see but I can hear.
    And then.. nothing. Just the sound of silence and the darkness. I felt lost. Lost in another world.

    It is hard to bear the look you gave me. I don't want to make you worry baby.

    Saturday, February 01, 2014

    "I have learned that in life it is better to have a few friends who stick with you thru the hard times and good times than a crowd who you don’t know well… well enough to say who will be staying and who will be leaving, or the worse if there are who call themselves as your friend but in the end, will betray you and stab your back, really hard. I’d rather be alone if that’s the case!

    I love my friends especially those I consider my ‘real’ friends but I am not saying that the others are ‘fake’ or anything like that it’s just those ‘real’ friends are those who I really am closed, attached and clingy with. Yes, I am a clingy friend. And bossy. And insensitive (to their feelings). And too sensitive (with my feelings).  I think that I am the shattered one in the group though it doesn’t look like on the outside. With my attitude, that I am not planning to change for things-not-so-much-worth-it, I am very thankful that my ‘real’ friends are still with me and that makes them my ‘real’ friends.

    I am still thinking. After seeing the movie that made my cry about a glass of tears, I found myself thinking. Thinking about my friends, my ‘real’ friends. It raised questions in my mind. Do I really have people around me that I can call true friends? Were our friendships is like the friendship that Rancho, Farhan and Wangdu have. Who will cry the most at my funeral? Maybe the right question to ask is will there be anyone to cry at my funeral aside from my family? Will there be people who will do things for me, without me asking to, but because they simply want to. They simply want to see me really happy. Funny thing is I don’t know if there is even one out a hundred who know what do I really want and what really makes me happy."


    This is a little part of the reaction paper I am doing right now. I don't know if I am going to really submit a paper like this, like too personal. But I want to be myself na. I want to express what's inside me to people I am not really attached with. Why? After a semester, swerte kung matandaan pa nya ako. Swerte kung matandaan pa nya yung mga pinaglalagay ko sa reaction paper na hinihingi nya.
    Swerte kung magkita pa kami ng madalas.

    It's hard to admit but I even cried while writing that part. cried at the thought of how friend-less i am.

    Wednesday, January 22, 2014

    deep sigh-naked words

    The man, the only man who loved me more than his life is leaving me soon.
    I don't know if I want to ask him to hold on a little longer for he will need to bear the pain or I'll simply hold his hand and say that it's okay, he can rest now. I don't want him to go, I don't really want to. :(

    There are thousand of thoughts that I want to share and talk about but I think there's no one who's willing to listen. I hate this!

    There's a big lump in my throat right now. It's painful to stop the tears from falling.
    Sigh-ing is the only thing I can do to release the pain and tension. 

    Tuesday, January 07, 2014

    Happy New Year guys!
    How's the first week of your 2014 has been? I hope you're doin' great!
    May the new year be a blessing. Hihi! :'>

    Sorry for the face. Selfie mode :p